Saturday, December 31, 2011

Adios 2011/Wretched Man

The things I don't want to do, I just keep doing.
The things I want to do, I can't do.


So I've been bored out of my mind the last two days. Too bored to be productive even. It's kind of weird how when you really have nothing to do, that's when you can't do what you really need to do. And when I start to think about exams I get a little anxious and tense so I stop thinking about it and do pointless things like watch Archer for the fifth time, or Mitch Hedberg for the tenth, or I rearrange all the stuff on my desk and tell myself it's more organized. That was yesterday anyway. Today has been slightly better. I've made some serious headway in this damn book. Like 80 pages or so. It's just so dense. It's not even that I don't like it--it's really interesting and all that, but it's a meta-text. Meta-something at any rate. That's what our teacher said. I thought that meant that it's a text about text. Like a novel about novel writing. That's not what this is. There is a plot and made up characters and weirdness. But apparently Faulkner was more interested in how this thing was put together than in the story itself. But that doesn't make sense to me either. The plot is so intertwined and weird and there are so many different things going on--racism, the Old South, fear of incest because you don't know who you're related to, pride, blah blah blah--why is anyone going to care how it's all put together? How is anyone going to even notice how it's put together. They are just going to think you are a convoluted and long-winded ass.

I guess I'm supposed to be optimistic right now right? The new year! Fare thee well 2011. It was a good year. A really good year actually. Lots of fun. Did some cool stuff. And I'm doing more cool stuff next year. Starting probably at the end January. I have two weeks after my last exam until lectures begin again on the 30th. I plan on having all my shit figured out by then too--signed up for all the right classes, pay my rent, make sure everyone knows that I'm going to be here another semester. I've gotten two emails from the school asking me to confirm that I'm only here for the first semester. That's making me really worried. They better not have given my room to someone or something stupid like that. Nothing is efficient here. Anyways, I have four more days on my Eurail pass (and four more after that if I can get away with using Adrianna's), but can only use it in Germany, Switzerland, and France. France is a big place. Versailles would be cool. I don't know. I'm not in the decision making mood.Louise is back now. At least she was earlier. Tony has been here too, and now they're both gone. People are starting to come back though--I can hear the obnoxious laughing outside my window and random stomping down the stairs. It's nice actually. I'm done with the quiet. It wasn't peaceful at all.
I really haven't thought about resolutions much this year. There's the generic "don't be fat" and "be nicer to people", but I think if I were more specific I'd be more likely to change. Something like "at least know where the gym is" or "buy some sweatpants cause I know it's too cold for me to go anywhere in these shorts" or "stop buying junk food." The junk food thing is weird anyway. I don't eat bad at home. I don't eat chips or cookies or fast food all that often, but I have been here and then I just tell myself that it's something different and "Irish" so it's okay. Not true. Crisps are just chips and chips are just fries and digestives are just cookies. Rashers is just ham (it's nothing like bacon). Irish food is like carb overload. All easy food is carb overload. Pasta and rice. And when I'm lazy it's JUST pasta and rice. My carrots rotted. Fucking Nate left carrots here from when they got delivered to him from Thanksgiving and then they got covered with bags of potatoes and I unearthed them today cause I had fried potatoes (carb overload) and eggs for breakfast and they are like a blackish grayish blob. Sick. I don't want to move it until I'm going to take the garbage out because I don't want to disturb it yet cause you know it's going to be rank. Moral of the story: Madre, could you please make me one of your monster salads when I get back? But anyway. Resolutions. Maybe I should just stick to one. I try to have too many that way I have better odds. The better your odds the worse it is when you fail though. So I guess I'll just say fuck being nicer to people, I'm going to try and disappear a little bit. (Don't remember taking that-->)

It's so cold in here. I could deal with the snowy coldness cause snow means it's supposed to be cold. But in my room?? I've been wearing socks to sleep. I HATE wearing socks to sleep. Nobody better tell me to tell the Residence Office about this either. I know. I will when they're open again on Tuesday. Also, my bathroom light went out and it's not just a normal bulb that I can replace myself. So. I really have to clean up my room. I have too much stuff. I don't know how this happened. I didn't come over with that much I didn't think. Things are going to have to go back in my suitcases I think. Save room. There's lots of stuff I don't use. I think I'm going to be leaving a lot of things here when I go home. Like my down comforter. This one is old and not particularly fluffy anymore. I'll buy another one. Also the pan I bought--the handle is jiggling. I'm keeping the spatula though. It's nice.

(Uncle Alfred's a ghost.)

Oh here's a resolution for you: Practice. That may be expecting too much. I'll start with "Open my case" for a week, then move on to holding the mouthpiece. I was doing alright for about a week before I left. It'll be okay. That's as optimistic as I can get right now.

So, if this is the last New Years we all see I'm going to be disgruntled. I hope you all have good ones! Have one for me Grandma. Drive safely. Dying is against the rules.

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Lazy, distracted, ADD

Sorry people. It's been weird here in Maynooth. There's nobody around since all the college kids are at home for the holiday and all the offices are closed until next week. Really dead. I haven't left the room today. I read a whole book today actually. Survivor by Chuck Palahniuk. He's the guy that wrote Fight Club. I really like him. Survivor is the only thing I've read by him. I want to read more even though he's really weird and messed up and dissatisfying. Anyway, I bought this book after I escorted Adrianna to the airport. I took the first bus down from the airport to O'Connell street, crossed the Liffey to Westmoreland and right next to the bus stop is the Book Value store. They shouldn't do that to me. I had 40 minutes to wait for the next bus out here and what else was I going to do? It was only 6 Euro though. But now it's done. I go through little obsessive times. When I'm obsessed with music it lasts longer--it could last a whole year even. Obsessive reading can only last as long as the book. This one was only 289 pages. The Harry Potter stint was a little longer. Now I have to go back to important reading. I have to finish the damn Faulkner...

But hey, the last two weeks were fun. I don't think I'll complain about snow now that I know what real snow is. I didn't fall though! That's all I was praying for--no broken wrists or asses right now please. Wool knee socks and thick gloves are fantastic. Trains are quite nice most of the time. We got to ride first class for about an hour between Berlin and Munich since the first train we were on got stuck--there were rocks in the track apparently.

German beer is pretty good. I'm kind of biased toward Irish beer though. The Irish seem to have more variety, but those Munich-ers have the big jugs. So at the Hofbrauhaus we each drank 2 litres of beer. After that we went back to the hostel and turned in these voucher things and got another baby glass of beer and did this one super cheap gross shot that was apparently vodka and strawberry syrup. I've never felt worse in the morning. It was really weird. I've been far far far more drunk and never had a hangover like this. I thought I was going to puke all over the Bonhof platform in Munich. But I didn't. In my experience, girls can hold their puke back until they have a proper place to wretch...boys don't have this skill. Anyway, I fell asleep on that train and woke up an hour later feeling excellent.

German people were pretty nice. You can tell the difference between "Germany" and "Bavaria" though. I prefer Bavaria. Not that Berlin wasn't really cool. The Berlin Cathedral is beautiful. That was the first church we climbed. And sausage is great. It's not pretty to look at though. It's tall and gray. We only had one day there though, so this is just a first impression. We had our first currywurst, gluhwein, pilsner, pretzel, and sauerkraut there. We went to the place that Anthony Bourdain went to get currywurst. It's underneath the train in the northern part of the city. It's poplar and it was good.

In Munich there was more gluhwein, pretzels, and wurst. You can get all kinds of stuff at the Christmas markets. We climbed another church--St. Peter's. Munich is a beautiful city and when you look out over the tops of all the brown slanted roofs, you know you're in Bavaria. The hofgarten was a little slippy. Sausage salad, crispy pork knuckle, and a pork choppy looking thing with gravy at the Hofbrauhause. That was up there on the best meal list. Maybe it was all the beer and no water all day, but it was delicious.

After that everything was white for a while. We went to see the cindarella castle--Neuschwanstein. To see this thing you have to catch a train down to Fussen which is right on the border of Germany and Austria. Then you've to take bus over to Hohenschwangau where there is the Hohenschwangau castle which is older and more legit than Neuschwanstein. The H one is on the way too. So you trudge up this hill to the ticket office and they tell you when you can go see both of them--you can't see them without being part of a tour. So the English ones were two hours apart basically. That seemed like plenty of time, but we also had to catch another train over to Switzerland after all this. But one thing at a time.

You buy your overly expensive tickets and then trudge farther up the hill to the first castle--the yellow one. You have to walk up a bunch of steps and steep walkways and then wait around in the courtyard for your time. It was blizzarding the whole time. It was awesome. When we first got there you could see the Neuschwanstein up on the hill, but really quickly it was swallowed up by the fog and snow coming down. It was all up in my hair and my shoes were pretty wet through by the time we got in there. Snow makes everything look beautiful though.

You aren't allowed to take pictures of the inside of the castle. I don't know why. It doesn't really matter. Kings of Bavaria lived in this castle. The first guy was Maximilien and his sons were Otto and Ludwig II. Ludwig II loved building castles. He had a bunch started or planned when he died. I don't know if any of them were ever really finished. He built Neuschwanstein. He grew up in Hohenschwangau though. The ground floor was for the queen, the first floor for the king, and the second floor for the kids. On the second floor there is a piano that is not particularly impressive. Ludwig loved Wagner, and Wagner visited the castle and played at this piano for 8 hours once. That was awesome. You aren't allowed to touch it. Otto sounded cool though. After Ludwig II died he would have been King of Bavaria if he wasn't deemed insane. He was insane because he liked art and music more than people. He didn't like parties or talking to people, so he had to be insane. One of their uncles ruled instead.

After you're done at Hohenschwangau, you have to hike up to Neuschwanstein. There's this little pointy sign that tells you how long it's going to take you. It says 50 minutes from the bottom of the long and super icy driveway of Hohenschwangau. Well, we only had 35 minutes or something to get there. So we were doing the hurry walk. It's at the very top of this moderately steep hill. We got there in 25 minutes. I was proud. And out of breath. And my nose was really cold. Neuschwanstein castle isn't finished. They only got through a third of it before Ludwig II died and the family said stop, it's too much money to finish anyway. That third that is finished is pretty damn cool though. I said this guy liked Wagner. Every room--even the thrown room--is decorated based on one of Wagner's operas. Wagner wrote The Ryde of the Valkyries fyi. He's awesome. He also thought he was the shit and had nothing to learn from anyone else. There's a Tristan and Isolde room, a Persifal room, Tannhäuser, Rienzi, and Lohengrin rooms. He had them build a fake cave for a hall way. Now they use the singer's hall for a concert of one of these operas once a year. That would be so cool.

Getting to Chur was a little bit of a nightmare. It only mattered because the hostel reception closed at 9:30 or ten. The back up was a bar next door. They closed at midnight. We rolled in at 1am. I was sure we would be sleeping on a bench in the snow or making an igloo or just wandering around the mountain all night. But there was a backup to the backup thank god. Another bar open until 2am. The bartender was really nice too. She told everything we needed to know, told us some Swiss beers, and made us some sandwiches cause we didn't eat dinner. All was well. I was freaking out and being bitchy for no reason.

Farewell and good riddance to Chur in the morning. We were supposed to take the Glacer Express to Zermatt which is this cool train that goes through the mountains and over a million bridges and it's supposed to be amazing. Well. It snowed a billion feet overnight ad they canceled the damn thing because they were afraid of avalanches. So, we had to go around the mountains: Chur to Zurich to Bern to Visp to Zermatt. It was still pretty cool. The last part was the same line--a private line that our passes don't cover, but we didn't know so we got out of paying. Sweet. Then we were in Zermatt.

Zermatt is different than I remember it. I was there in the summertime though, and I didn't care about money the same way I do now. It's ridiculously expensive. The hostel was $115 for one night for two people. Bat shit insane is what it is there. It's basically a place for tourists to stay after a day of skiing and gawking at the Matterhorn. We tried to gawk, but it again snowed some ridiculous and unusual amount overnight and when we got up to Gornergrat it was too foggy to see anything really. It was kind of cool too. Still no Matterhorn though. Not in July, not in December. I'll never see it I don't think.

Getting the hell out of there, Bern was next. Bern is pretty cool. The old town anyway--that's all we were really interested in. Even that part isn't very old seeming though. It's covered in mostly high-end shops and there are only a few sights we had time for. We climbed another church though! It's awesome. I love climbing church steeples. It's hard to take pictures like that at night though. This one was kind of freaky too. When you're going up the long spiral stairs like every other church you're ever going to climb, there were long widows (I guess. I don't know what else to call them right now). They weren't really windows...they were like, long and pretty wide rectangles cut out of the concrete or stone so you can always see outside--and down. It was a little scary actually. I don't like knowing how high up I am until I'm up there I guess. And then it doesn't bother me. But watching you're progress is a little unnerving. It also felt like if you tripped something you were going to go over the edge. It was weird. Awesome though. We had fondue that night! It was really good. After a while it gets a kind of hard to keep going though. The wine seems stronger the more you eat. There's this fountain of a guy eating children. I don't remember the story about it, but it was right outside the hostel we stayed at. There's the big Zytgogge clock too. I like that one. It's beautiful. More Christmas markets. We didn't have gluhwein here though. Probably should have.

We met up with Alfred to find that crest. The village it's in is Valangin. It's north of Neuchatel which is north of Bern. We took the train to Neuchatel and he was there waiting for us. He drove us in his car to Valangin and knew right where the little church was--it's a tiny village so I guess it's not hard to find anyway--and right where the crest was in the stained glass. It was cool. He didn't speak hardly any English and I don't speak any French. It was a little bit awkward cause we couldn't talk to him in the car, but it was okay. We told him we were going to Montreux and he decided to just drive us there. That was really nice. It took an hour I think. I fell asleep in the backseat.

It was beautiful in Montreux. The perfect winter day. We did Chillon castle. Climb to the top--see the city of Montreux 3 or kilometres away. When we told Alfred we were going to Geneva the same day he made sure we knew the bus to get on to get into Montreux again cause it's a little far to walk. We walked though--there's this path that goes all the way from the castle into town. It's pretty. And you have an awesome view of Lac Leman and the castle as you're leaving. In town is the Freddy Mercury statue! Another Christmas market. Another Ferris wheel. Another pig knuckle for dinner! More Gluhwein. Gingerbread, chocolate stuff, cheese, and meats. It was grand.

After eating a bunch of random stuff we jumped on the train to Geneva. I didn't know exactly how to get to the hostel, but it wasn't too terribly hard once you could figure out what street you're on. Their street signs are kind of small. It was way down the main road and then down this kind of dark street. It wasn't that bad though. We got in a bit early and played cards in the common room. We were the last ones in our room to leave. That was nice--it's hard to try and be quiet getting all your shit together in the morning.

Geneva is really nice. More things to climb: St. Peter's again. It's St. Pierre there though. We got to hear the bells on 1pm. we waited for them for 15 minutes. It was a little anticlimactic. Notre-Dame cathedral is really pretty. They have some of my favorite stained glass--really bright colors. It was awesome to be in there that day too because it was sunny and partly cloudy so it'd be a little dark for a while and all of a sudden really bright. I liked it. We walked around a lot. Had our wine in a bar in the old town. At at a Co-op. Switzerland is just expensive in general.

Back to good old Ireland that night. It was Christmas eve...and buses weren't running from the airport. You'd think they've have a big sign or something telling you that were kind of stranded at the airport. They don't. We were standing at the stop and some Filipinos came up and we waiting too when this random guy walked by telling us we were waiting for nothing. Sonofabitch. I guess we have to catch a taxi. He asked us where we were going and said he could give us a lift in that general direction but not the whole way. Okay, he wasn't a totally random buy. He was wearing kind of official clothes. I don't have words at my disposal today. He wasn't a creep. We were following him when he decided to talk to the "citylink" drivers. Those buses go between all the big cities in Ireland: Dublin to Galway, Cork to Belfast, Donegal to Dublin etc. One of them said he could take the "sliproad" to Maynooth and drop us there. We'd have a bit of a walk after that but no big deal. Better than paying 70Euro for a taxi. So we jumped on this bus and didn't have to pay anything. A slip road is a roundabout I guess...I don't really know. But dropped us there kind of in the middle of nowhere and I didn't know where to go. So, I chose the wrong way. There was a sign that said "Maynooth business campus." Well, it says Maynooth and campus so lets try it. I still don't know what it is, but it has 24 hour security and this guy popped his head out of a window and asked what we were doing. We're lost kind sir, not trying to harm this office building. He pointed us in the right direction and made sure we knew it was at least a 40 minute walk down the road. We've had worse.

It always seems like longer when you're carrying things--like 4 bottles of wine in a rolling suitcase, or ten pounds of chocolate in a plastic bag with the handles ripped, and backpacks full to the bursting point. It did take 40 minutes. We passed a bunch of people, but only a few tried to talk to us.

Then we were here in the freezing apartment. Crash. In the morning--Christmas day--we had to change our plans. We were going to cook, but we weren't really prepared and I didn't know that every single store in town would be closed. Do they do that in America? I don't really know because we don't really leave the house on holidays anyway. The buses weren't running. So we were stranded in Maynooth. We made berry pie. We could have made pumpkin pie but some bitches threw away my eggs when they left. They didn't throw away anything else of mine but the eggs I bought the day before I left. That made me mad...hopefully whoever it was took them with them instead of just throwing them away. They were fine. I was going to use them. Whatever. We couldn't do that. We had to wait until the next day--St. Steven's day. Most of the stores are closed that day too. Everywhere else but here it's called Boxing day and it's just a made up bank holiday. But here it's St. Stephen's day--the saint's feast day, so at least it's based in something. Not just an excuse to have three days off of work.

We "hoofed it" over to Tesco and bought supplies: green beans, cream of mushroom soup, junk food, beer, Jameson, lemons, eggs, milk. Then we went into Dublin. The goal was some more Guinness and wandering. We ran into Oscar Wilde first, said hey, read some quotes, and walked toward Grafton. We passed the Porterhouse and I remember reading about it somewhere, so why not, lets try it. Turns out it's a micro brewery. No Guinness, but they had this good oyster beer that was a lot like Guinness--black, smooth, and foamy. We ended up eating there and having three pints each. We were there for a good three hours too. There was a football match on the big screen. After that we ran into Molly Malone, said hey, took an extended arm shot, and walked toward Temple Bar. Got the all important picture of Temple Bar itself. Most of the other bars in the district were closed though. We finally found this chill one--there were mostly older guys in there watching the game. Two pints later it was time to catch the bus, but we got one more and had to chug it down. Bad move. The bus ride was fine, walking was grand, sitting on the bed afraid to close my eyes sucked.

I crashed hard but felt fine in the morning. It was kind of stressful on Tuesday. Her flight was at 2. Basically, she got there just in time. Can't depend on public buses to be on time and can't depend on me to have the right change for the bus all the time. Or any cash at all that day. I forgot that I had spent everything I had on pints. She got there though, and all was well.

I was pretty sad after that haha it was weird being here alone last night all day today. Now I'm back to being okay with it. It's going to suck to live alone though. I have things to keep me busy right now though--it's time to buckle down and make myself care about passing my classes. My first exam is next Saturday.

I love and miss all of you.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Success

So, we found the crest. It only took about half an hour...so, a little anticlimatic, but it was cool. It's in this little village north of Neuchatel called Valingan or something like that. It's in a church that was built in 1496. All the crests of the families in the area are in the stained glass. It's neat. The church is small, the village is small. All the houses have really cool and old and colorful shutters that I liked.
So, Alfred is the uncle man. He was really nice and didn't speak hardly any English. And we speak only like four words of French, so that was fun. He drove us Montreux though. That was really nice.
Montreux is cooler than I remember it being. There's a lot more to Chillon castle than I remember too. I don't think we got to do the whole thing last time--you can climb all the way up the keep. Awesome.
Christmas markets! They are everywhere. Lots of meats, cheeses, more pig knuckles! Delicious. Also a different kind of hot wine that's really good. No rum, but still warms you right up!
So now we're in Geneva and our plane doesn't leave until 9:45 tomorrow night, so we've got the whole day to run around and see some more stuff--more churches of course, probably the United Nations and the reformation wall...another church for St. Peter. That guy is everywhere. And he always has the biggest church in the area.
So yeah. Back to Ireland tomorrow. And Christmas is going to be cool--pies and cheese and wine. That's the plan. Loads and loads of pictures to come.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Switzerland

Crazy snow. Very cold. Train issues. Super expensive.

We had 53 Franc Fondue for dinner tonight. That's like 60 bucks...it was good though.

Tomorrow is the quest for the family crest, and then on to Geneva! And then back to Dublin on Saturday.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Guten nacht

I don' have time for a legit post from here--you have to pay to use these computers and they don't have USB jacks anyway. But I have lots of pictures that are blog worthy but not interesting enough for facebook.

Berlin though was pretty cool. We definitely couldn't do it all in the 36 hours we were there, but we did a big chunk. No Checkpoint Charlie though...that would have been cool. We saw the Berlin Cathedral and went up to the cuppola and down to the crypt. Pretty creepy. St. Hedwig's Cathedral. I like that one--it's just a big dome. You aren't supposed to go in there as a sightseer apparently, so we just peeked in through the glass doors and took some photos. The very first place we went was that little sausage and beer stand thing that Anthony Bourdain went to. It was good. Kurrywurst and Berliner Pilsner. The big one of course. It looks like a huge beer cause it's still in the bottle, but it's just a pint really. Maybe that is a lot...I think it's just right. I had goose for dinner last night. We got this mulled wine stuff, pretzels, sour kraut (which Adrianna does't like), strudel, stressel, this flat cheese sandwhich thing that was really good.
The train here to Munich turned out to be about 7 hours. We switched trains once because the track of the one we were on had big rocks on it apparently. The second one was awesome though. Either the whole thing was just really nice, or we were in first class. It was cool.
I was a little brokenhearted earlier because when we got off the train I went to turn my ipod off and it froze Adrianna tried to tell me how to reset it, but it's really a different combination of buttons to push. I looked it up online and was saved my mental breakdown. All is well.
Tomorrow will be grand. We don't have the longest itinerary here. There's the Nationaltheater which is where the Munich orchestra plazs. Lots of Wagner's operas were premiered there under Ludwig II of Bavaria. That'd be cool to see. There's the Hofbräuhaus am Platz which is the most famous beerhall in the world apparently. Probably touristy, but that means they'll have things in English, so I don't care. I don't want to get blood sausage or something. There's the Viktualienmarkt which is a fresh food/deli sort of thing. And then there's the Christkindlemarkt. A really big and famous Christmas market. It'll be fun. If it's anything like the Berlin Christmas markets there will be tons of food. I want a bratwurst with mustard. That's my attainable goal for tomorrow.
We still aren't 100% sure about the train from here to Chur on Tuesday. That's what I really came down here to do, but whatever.

Friday, December 16, 2011

Long day.

Going to be longer tomorrow. Waking up at 5:30...in the morning. What the fuck. We're going to Cork. Blarney castle awaits. Then a night at the airport I might really be able to sleep at this time. And then we'll be in Berlin! I'm excited. I'm not taking my laptop though, so no worrying if I don't say anything to anyone tomorrow. Goodnight.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Eeeeeeee

Before:Okay people. This is long. Weird long. Far too long. I didn't realize just how long it was until I saw this picture.

After:More like it. Still kind of boring, but better.

Weep for yourself my man

I didn't think today through really. Actually, I just suck. I didn't want to wake up early. No, earlier. I didn't know what was on my Irish final. No, further back. I didn't go to Irish class last week--either days. And to be perfectly honest I didn't go the week before that either. At the same time: things in Dublin close early for some reason. Early being five. So. I needed to be back here at school by 3pm for my wouldhavebeen final for Irish. The plan last night was to wake up at 8 and get the heck out of here. Well, my phone went of a eight and it wasn't even light outside, so I went back to sleep until 9. At about 9:30 I re-realized that it takes an hour to get into town. We did go into Dublin, but we only had about two and a half hours to be there. We saw the Book of Kells at Trinity college though! The Long Room is really cool. You aren't allowed to take pictures in there, so this is what you get. The little exhibit thing downstairs about the books is cool too. For those of you who are unaware, the Book of Kells is this really old copy of the 4 Gospels. It is so special because it is basically a piece of art. It's really ornate and there are pictures all over it and it's colorful still and in Latin.

We had time for a quick pint in Temple Bar district before catching the bus back here. And then shit got frustrating. It turns out that we all have individual times to go in for the speaking portion and mine is tomorrow. Grand. We could have done a lot more in Dublin today. I'll just have to not be a wuss tomorrow and get the hell out of bed earlier--before it's light out apparently.

We made dinner--stir fry with all kind of vegetables and bacon joint. It was good. I was satisfied.
Tomorrow is St. Patrick's cathedral, and walking around, and then the Jameson factory after my stupid test. Friday: Blarney! It's going to be awesome. That's my favorite place on this island as far as I've seen so far. And then we're gone on Saturday. We have to spend the night at the airport on Friday since our flight is super early. But it's quite alright. I'm excited.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Darkness is a harsh term don't you think?

It's Christmas day on campus. That just means people act crazy all day. I really don't know why people complain about Americans so much. The Irish are louder by far. There are groups of people walking around with cans of beer or cider, open pint glasses, trash bins on their heads with lights, antlers, Santa hats of course, and they're all just screaming about the wind and rain. It's been raining all day. I don't know where any of them are going, or if they're going anywhere at all.

Our power is half out too. Anything that's plugged into an outlet works, so the fridge oven, my computer, all that's fine. But the lights don't work in the common room, hallway, or any of our rooms. So I finally lit my candle. It's tiny and doesn't help much, but it smells like soap.

I went to the store and everyone was buying alcohol. It was pretty funny. The college guys buy big cases of cheap beer, girls buy cider, and older people buy Powers and wine. It's really nice not getting carded at all. Most of the time I forget my ID when I go to the store anyway.

Tonight is a breakfast-for-dinner kind of night.

Okay the lights are back. Louise and I were standing out there just staring at the switch board and then Taige's ten friends come in and one really tall guy just flips them all up and ta da ta da ta da forever amen we have lights. It was one of those stereotypical girl moments...we don't know anything about electricity apparently. I thought that when something like happened it's just one switch that's different from the others. But I guess it can be a whole row. Now we know. But yeah. Taige has a bunch of people in his room now. It's going to be a crazy night here, but I won't be around for it.

I'm going to sleep at the airport again tonight because Adrianna gets in at half five in the morning. That's crazy. But the first bus out of Maynooth in the morning is seven. So she'd be waiting around for three and a half hours. That's a waste of time ya? I don't know what we're going to do at half five in the morning other than drink a lot of strong coffee, but it'll be grand.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

You have neither reason nor rhyme

It's coming...

Since when do I have so many purple shirts?
I must look like Barney with my green jacket more often than I thought.
Maybe they don't have Barney here...


Other news: I finally finished The Odyssey. Blood, gore, love, family, peace. It ends kind of abruptly. Now I just have Absalom, Absalom! to go for the Modernism exam. Ulysses is still hanging around too. It's just too daunting for the time being.

I took out my bins and cleaned my bathroom. I was going to go for a walk, but once I got out there to the dumpsters it was too damn cold. I could have just put more clothes on, but, you know...lazy-useless.

Okay this is as Irish as I've gotten. Just "Irish sausages" and cabbage. I could have made some mashed potatoes too, but I wasn't feeling it. That was dinner. It was fantastic. Steamed/boiled cabbage always reminds me of Grandma's old house.

I practiced again. I had a sudden rush of inspiration/panic (hard to tell anymore) and played through every Rochut I have and my whole solo. It's really not that hard. If I had stuck to the practice schedule Dr. N gave me when I left I'd be awesome right now. It was interesting though because even though I know I sound like shit, I feel like I can tune myself so much better than I used to be able to. I don't know if I was just taking it for granted while I was in all those music classes or if I just didn't care or--this is probably it--I just didn't listen to enough recorded music, but I used to just go on autopilot and stick to positions and whatever side of 140 the notes came out on, I was unaware. So maybe my negligence will end up being a good thing...positivity.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Let me learn from where I've been

This is what time I got up. I don't know how that happened. I went to sleep at around that time too. I kind of had a feeling something like it was going to happen though so I set three different alarms, but just turned them all off. My phone makes it too easy to ignore things. And this alarm here seems sooooo loud so I don't like using it a lot. I always feel like I'm waking up Aoife too. These walls are thin. I can always her singing to herself or talking with whoever she has over. She is a singer though--she's studying music--so I don't mind. Not that I would mind that much if she sounded like shit, but you know. Sometimes she and one of her friends sing and play guitar together. It's pretty cool.

I went to the store after this. This was my list:
I don't know why I have this need to date everything. I'm just going to throw this list away after there's no more room for further list-making on it. People have also given me shit for dating postcards. That one makes sense I think though. If you keep postcards--which I think most people do--you'll want to know when they were from when you run across them again in a few years or however long. Anyway, you can see I'm still lacking tacks (I only need one for my calendar so I never look very hard for these at the store), sponges, and dish soap. Our sponge is disgusting. The thing about sponges and dish clothes are that when you know you have a few you get rid of them before they are get-rid-of worthy. And then you're down to the last one and you use it until it's growing things because you don't want to buy anymore. So, I was going to buy some, but then when I got there I didn't look very hard because I never have very many dishes and I'm only going to be here for another week and then I can buy them for real when I get back...or maybe by then someone else will have bought some.

Breakfast. At this time----->
That's a scone if you can't tell. They aren't that great from Dunnes, but it's something easy. After this I just sat around watching Mumford and Sons videos on youtube (seriously, literally obsessed), and watching facebook not change because it's like 5AM back home, and watching it get darker outside. I did look at the first page of the first packet for Irish we got. Dia dhuit. I'll remember that one. I really don't get bored that often. But I have been bored out of my mind the last two days. I took some pictures with the flower setting.

It took me about a week to find good colored pencils here. I should have just brought all my art supplies from home, but instead I filled my suitcase with clothes I don't wear and books I won't read. I should be an art minor instead of creative writing. I'm going to drop it I think. I'm not committing to that yet, but I always ending up doing what I say I'm thinking about doing. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. Right now I'm in mind to say it's grand. Ideal even. My only complaint in regards to these pencils: there's no red. What kind of color spectrum has pink but not red. Pink isn't even a real color. I've only painted one thing with oils. It takes forever and a day to dry. Not that that matters that much. I'm not in a hurry to hang anything. Or really do anything with anything, but the longer something sits around and I have to look at it the more ridiculous it seems to me. So I've made a few attempts, but then they stare at me from the window sill and I end up throwing them away. Will power man--I need a dose.

This is awesome to me. It's Russian lit in Spanish! You can find anything at El Rastro. This would probably be easier for me to read than Don Quixote. I have the English copy.

Check it out. Difficulty rating 5. I didn't even have to cheat. I've been told that Sudoku really isn't that great or hard or cool. Well, fuck that guy.




Dirty dish tower.










Dinner. Dinner had potential today--I bought meat and cabbage and I have other things like mushrooms and spices and rice and whatever, but for some reason, when I'm bored I just become lazy and utterly useless. The cabbage must wait until tomorrow. This is my perfectly precise measuring cup. My roommate has a real one, but it's all in milliliters and ounces, and that's as useful to a dumb non-mathematical American as it would be in Hebrew. This cup actually works out pretty well though. Nothing as turned out overly soupy or too dry, so I'm satisfied.


Bulmers! This is Irish cider people. And I think it's a Christmas version because I haven't seen it before and it says it's special. There was also a rhubarb one, but that's a little weird. Honestly, it tastes the same as the normal one to me, but that's not all bad. Yeah Madre, it's only 4% (I made sure to get that in the picture) so I'd need quite a few more to make it count, but it was nice. I was a little perturbed for minute when I went to open it though. I never think about how I'm going to have to open things. With wine I've been lucky that I have cheap taste cause they have all been screw tops. We don't have a cork screw and we don't have a bottle opener. I also don't have a lighter or keys. So, I had to do the edge of the table thing. I only took a tiny chunk out of the wood...

Okay last thing. I've started to pack a little bit for next week. Just a little bit. Like, I've started to think about it and do some laundry to prepare for it. So the question of the day is shoes. And not in the fashionable sense. You all know I could give a fuck, but it's going to be cold in the Alps in winter.

I always feel a weird sort of loyalty to inanimate objects. (Paco is the extreme example. The fern--whose fate is now dubious--is another.) These shoes have gone everywhere with me, and they don't look too worn out in this picture. Pros: they fit, they're comfortable, they are made for movement. Cons: they are not waterproof. They are not warm. They are not particularly grippy, though, I don't know how much ice we're really going to come across.






These. Look huge in this picture. Like clown boots. Definite con. Anyways, they're water proof and pretty warm. So, you know, if we decide to have a snowball fight or something these are the way to go. I'll probably choose these. And deal with the blisters that may come. Also coming with me--scarves, beanies, gloves, hand warmers. I'm probably projecting my idea of cold more than I should be. I just feel like I need to be prepared for a blizzard or something.

Friday, December 9, 2011

As it's meant to be

This was a big day people! Not really, but for me it was a turning point. I practiced for real. For 45 minutes without giving up because I sound like shit--and I did sound like shit for ever second of it. Even my rests were terrible.

Also, this blog is going to turn into a documentary rather than a book report.

Trombone...
Check. It looks funny here. The washed out lighting makes it look like it's emanating light or something. It is not the holy trombone, it's just mine. I don't think I'll ever name it. A lot of people name their instruments, but I don't know. Maybe someday. I don't plan on ever buying another one so maybe it'd be okay. Anyways, I realized that I should have bought more slide jizz before I left, and I don't have my little water spray bottle! That's a real shame.



Mouthpiece...
Check it out. Beautiful. Clean, shiny, new. It's a big one too. I still don't really know what all the different mouthpiece sizes are. They are different for every instrument too, so you have to just memorize the most common size that are for student models and then you have to just go from there. It's going to be hard being a teacher. I think it'll be fun too though.


Face...
Yep...







(I did take a nicer one than this, but I like this one better. )





Music...
I have a whole binder of things I'm supposed to be able to play. Technical exercises, rochut (that's french so it's "row-shoo"), Dr. N's warm up book, Gillis, and then I also have this:
This is a hard solo that I'm to be working on for my recital next year. I don't expect any of you to go to this recital by the way--it looks like it promises to be a bit disappointing. Anyways, it's a really cool song, and to be honest it isn't really that crazy hard. There isn't any extreme range, there's only a few measures of weird counting, three measures of ad lib, and 8 32nd notes to work out. I just really honestly suck right now so it makes everything hard. But I'll get there. It's easier to practice when there is a goal or some event to work toward, otherwise, who cares?

Oh yeah, like my awesome music stand? Here's the rest of my practice room:
Notice the clothes drying. Really, the sink works quite well. This also gives me reason to wear my glasses. If/when I need to go out to the farther slide positions I have to move away from the sink (my back was against the door a few times it's so small in there) and the light is a joke. So yeah, I can just make use of all the things I've been neglecting.

I've been missing my guitars the last few days. I have a list of songs to learn when I get home (I'm welcoming requests). I really want to be a better guitar player--not just someone who claims to play but who only knows so many chords and can't use a pick correctly. I want to pick up flute again. Actually, really, I just want to be good at everything haha I think I could do it though. I honestly haven't missed playing and it really bothered me, but I guess 6 months is my limit. I do miss playing and I miss being in band. I've always complained about not having those first two normal college years that you're supposed to have before you declare your major. I never got to take random classes that I thought would be interesting. Well, that's what I'm doing now, and I don't like it. I skip class fairly frequently because in the back of my mind I know it really doesn't matter. Half of these classes aren't counting toward my major or my ridiculous minor and my GPA can stand a few flunks. I hate not being something though. It's all very anonymous here, which is fine, which I like actually, but you can be anonymous and also a member of something. At central I am anonymous bass bone girl. Here I'm just anonymous. So anyway, the point I'm not articulating well is that I've had my hiatus, gotten everything I could out of it--perspective, and I'm ready to get back on track and be a musician again.

So, that only took me three months to realize. I don't know what epiphany I'm going to come across in the next four.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

This time no, this time no

Since I'm rather boring lately, here are things that have nothing to do with me.



"I want a life that sizzles and pops and makes me laugh out loud. And I don’t want to get to the end, or to tomorrow, even, and realize that my life is a collection of meetings and pop cans and errands and receipts and dirty dishes. I want to eat cold tangerines and sing out loud in the car with the windows open and wear pink shoes and stay up all night laughing and paint my walls the exact color of the sky right now. I want to sleep hard on clean white sheets and throw parties and eat ripe tomatoes and read books so good they make me jump up and down, and I want everyday to make God belly laugh, glad that he gave life to someone who loves the gift." Shauna Niequist









"How much older can you be at your age? A half minute before that you were stepping into high school, and an unhooked brassiere was as close as you ever hoped to get to Paradise. Only a fifth of a second before that you were a small kid with a ten-week summer vacation that lasted a hundred years and still ended too soon. Zip! They go rocketing by so fast. How the hell else are you going to slow time down?" Joseph Heller, Catch-22









"Oh, fuck off… It’s not my job to make you a better man and I don’t give a shit if I’ve made you a better man. It’s not a fucking woman’s job to be consumed and invaded and spat out so that some fucking man can evolve." -Jenny Schecter, The L Word








Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.
Sigmund Freud
Thou leathern-jerkin, crystal-button, knot-pated, agatering, puke-stocking, caddis-garter, smooth-tongue, Spanish pouch!" Henry IV, part I